You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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This story begins with me living in Milwaukee, WI. My ex had moved out and into an apartment with my so called best friend. I was devastated for awhile. I started chatting with people online and met a wonderful poet. I became president of his fan club. LOL. He would send me poems and I responded with praise and requests for more poems. Eventually we started chatting on instant messenger. I loved my online friend. We chatted everyday. So when my ex decided he wanted me back and started acting phsyco and stalkerish. I knew I needed to leave Milwaukee. My best friend and I talked about it and we decided I would come to West Virginia and start over there.

Moving Day:

I packed my clothes and a few precious items. I got the cats into their cat carriers. After bandaging the wounds, started loading the car. I caught my ex, by my car and (after his vandalizing the car twice in one week) was ready to go into battle. I was so close to being free. After listening to him tell me that he wanted me back, I agreed to think about it. I put the cats in the car and drove away. Now it was raining just a little when I left. My windshield wipers didn't work (thanks to the ex).

The Trip:

Ever spend 24 hours in a small Nissan Sentra with two unhappy cats? You don't want to. I get through the rain and only hit a few scattered showers. I get to the Illinois / Indiana line then spend 3 hours trying to go 5 miles. Interstate is closed due to flooding. I get through the detour and yeah we are moving again. Oh no! now it is about five in the morning and I am exhausted. I pull over and take about an hour nap.

I get back on the road and make it through Indiana and almost all the way through Ohio. I get about a 130 miles from my destination, and I feel a vibration from the front of the car. Oh no! I don't have a spare. Just let me get to the next exit. Pop! Nope there goes the tire.

Text message and a phone call. He's on his way. It'll take about two hours to get there. So I sit and wait on the side of the road with two very unhappy and cranky cats.

I see the van as they pull up. I am hot, tired, frustrated (I could go on but you get the picture) and I had to pee so bad. Not one bush where I had the flat at. I watched him as he jumped out of the van and started walking back to my car.

Suddenly, I felt very nervous and excited. Not the meeting I had had planned in my mind. Oh well. He walked over and squatted down beside me and said, "Hi, I'm Rabid." My nervousness left and I laughed. This was my best friend.

And that is the story of Mine and Rabid's first meeting. As I type this he is sitting tuning his guitar, and for the first time in a long time, I feel safe and that I am finally home.

You turn to go... akwardness
I watch you walk away.
you diappear over the hill,
My head drops.
Turning, I walk in the opposite direction.
My heart heavy... with unsaid things.
I head for home alone.